I have been meaning to write this story for some time, just never have.
I was 20, so young and didn't know much of anything at all about having a baby. I did know that I wanted to "try" to have my baby without an epidural. I now know how silly it is to "try" when you aren't fully prepared...or prepared at all for that matter. I had a go O.B. I though, i saw him for about 2 minutes each visit and he seemed trustworthy. If I really think about it, he was a good one, just not the one I needed. Anyway Trinity was due on August 14, 2007. I went in for my weekly visit on August 7, 2007 and my doctor said to me "Ok well I'm going to schedule you for an induction tomorrow. You will come into the hospital at 10 p.m. and they will get you hooked up." I was totally shocked and immediately asked why?! He then said....get ready for it, "I am not going to be here when your baby is due so if we don't deliver now then some random doctor will be delivering your baby." So what was I to do?! All I could do was say yes and try not to panic.
It wasn't the Pitocin that I was scared of, I was so not ready to have a baby the next day! lol Yes I had 9 months to prepare but still, I was shocked.
On August 8th at 10 p.m. I went into Fairview hospital nervous and excited. They took forever getting me all set up.
By 1 a.m. I was finally hooked up to the stupid monitors. One of the nurses said that, according to the monitors, I was already having a few contractions! They then hooked me up to that EVIL drug Pitocin. They didn't just give me a little (which could have started labor, then they could have taken me off), they just turned it all the way up and left the room. For those who don't know, when Pitocin is set that high it makes your uterus contract so hard and so fast that it is almost impossible to have natural drug free birth after that.
I dealt with the contraction by rolling in the bed as much as I could (which wan't much because of the ridiculous monitors). At 3 a.m. my husband had fallen asleep and my mom was trying to sleep. At that moment my water broke so I called for a nurse. She came in and said that she didn't water did break. Now I felt dumb, I didn't know much of what was going on but I was pretty sure that I was soaking wet down there. She checked again and my water kinda bursted! lol So I said, see, I knew something was going on! So she checked and I was 3 centimeters, not bad.
At this point I lost track of the times. I wallowed in pain on that bed, because my nurses said that I could NOT get out of bed because my water broke, so I had to use a GROSS bedpan for the rest of labor. HATED that!! I felt so gross just sitting in that bed....ew. After some time they checked me and i was 6 centimeters and I couldn't do it. The Pitocin was contracting my uterus at such an unnatural strength that I couldn't take it. I asked for the epidural.
What I didn't realize was that I had to then wait on the anesthesiologist...it felt like an eternity. He finally got there and had me sit up on the side of the bed and said DO NOT MOVE. At that same moment I was having a major contraction and really wanted to cry he scared me so badly! Anyway, he got it done, it did hurt but afterwards the pain ceased almost instantly. The medication made me nauseous and I threw up then completely fell asleep for a few hours!
When I woke up I had the nurses check me because no one had...in HOURS! Of course at this point I was 9 almost 10 centimeters. They weren't expecting me to progress that quickly, so they had to hurry and call the doctor to come in. He came and we got to pushing at around 10:30 a.m. Just to let you know, my experience with pushing while having an epidural was just plain awful. I couldn't feel ANYTHING, and some of you will be like, whats your problem?! Well I had NO idea where or how to push because I couldn't feel jack diddly squat! It was embarrassing and I felt plain stupid. LUCKILY, I only had to push for about 15 minutes. After that I coughed from having such a dry throat (because they don't let you drink anything....grrr) and they doctor said, cough again!! I coughed about 3 more times and Trinity came right out. Haha!
The moment I held my baby girl all was right in the world. Even though I didn't get to have the birth I wanted at this moment it didn't matter. Nothing mattered except how much love I was feeling for my baby girl at that very moment! If I had to I would do it all again!
**Some other things, my doctor performed an unnecessary episiotomy without asking or telling me. Thats when the doctor cuts your perineum to help baby come out easier. In my case, I didn't need it, he just routinely did them. So I had to heal from that and that sucked.
Also I am super lucky that this birth went so smoothly despite all the interventions.**
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